Dear Samantha,
Happy heavenly birthday to you. You are 3 years old already but you are still a little baby in our memories. Jonathan kor-kor remembers your birthday today because Mommy marked it down on his calendar. We will be visiting you next week. Hope you have a blast celebration with your heavenly friends.
Always in our memories,
Daddy, Mommy and Jonathan kor-kor
My sweet girl Samantha,
You had left us for 2 years. The first year without you was tough. Daddy and mommy were struggling with God to understand and overcome your passing. By the grace of God, we managed to revive from thissad episode.
Daddy and mommy then thought that by having a new addition in the family would help to cure our wounded heart and fill the emptiness in our heart. Jonathan kor kor also has been longing for a sibling to play with. We can see that he is such a loving and caring brother. Saying all these, still God has His own plan. Once again, God took our baby away. Baby Jeremy was born premature and only live for 8 days. No one knows why God took him away. It’s a mystery. At this moment we do not know if we can breakthrough this sorrow.
Daddy, mommy and Jonathan kor kor will always remember both you and baby Jeremy in our heart. Please help us to love and care for Jeremy which we couldn’t during his short time on earth. We know you will be a good sister.
Missing both of you dearly.
We have a new neighbour recently. This new neighbour of ours have a 1 yo baby. Yesterday night, Jonathan and I were standing at the door looking out to the neighbour’s house. Jonathan then said to me…
Jon: Mommy, Ah Ma ask if I want aunty’s baby. But I told her I don’t want.
Me: Why you don’t want?
Jon: Because I already have a baby in my heart mah…
Me: Who is the baby in your heart?
Jon: Samantha lor…
My heart teared…of happiness and sadness.
Her pulse rate started to drop. She is too weak to swallow her saliva. And eventually she stop breathing without saying goodbye to us.
It has been a year since Samantha left us. Has been imagining how pretty she is if she’s still with us.
Tiny Angel rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And gaze at your pretty bright eyes.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear….
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren’t here for very long….
Why is it, you couldn’t stay?
p/s: Thanks to Petrina for this lovely and thoughtful photo magnet.
We celebrated Jonathan’s 4th birthday in school today. While Jonathan was giving out the party pack to his friends, his teacher reminded them to share with their brothers and sisters at home. Later that night, I had a conversation with Jonathan that goes like this…
Me: Jonathan, teacher say must share the party pack with who?
Jon: With our brother and sister.
Me: Do you have a brother or sister?
Jon: I don’t have.
Me: Are you sure?
Jon: Ermm…I have a sister. But she died already wor.
Last year, we celebrated Jonathan’s 3rd birthday on the same date as well…10 October. His actual birthday is 8 October. By God’s grace, Samantha was able to celebrate Jonathan’s 3rd birthday together with us. Samantha was just 6 months at that time. I wonder how she would look like by now. If she is still around, I think she will be as excited as her kor-kor when she sees Jonathan’s football cake. We probably would need to guard her from damaging the cake with her fingers. 😛
Here are some snapshots of the event with Samantha.
Missing you lots, sweetie!
